I Dunno....and that's okay.

Everyday we are faced with tons of decisions. Some we make, and some we avoid. This week I encounter 2 strong women. Both battling with decisions to make. These weren’t light decisions, but rather lifestyle decisions.
As I listened intently to both women, I noticed some eerie similarities. Both women questioned themselves. They questioned if they were making the right choices. They questioned if they were making the wrong choices. They pondered, they back-tracked and shoulders were shrugged. They reminded me of……myself. I too was once full of indecision. I would question myself and my own intuition. But now, I followed the advice that I gave these ladies.
—You don’t have to make a decision right now. Nor do you have to make a decision tomorrow or next month. The only thing you are obligated to do is worship God and be happy. Everything else (and I mean everything else) is secondary. --
Sometimes we women put restraints on our own life. We create ridiculous checklist to determine where we should be in life and what we should be doing. Sometimes we put too much “importance” on the traditional ways of life. {Go to school…graduate…work…get married…have kids…perfect parenthood…age gracefully…}
Who decided that you should live that life? Did you or is it some type of “social norm” that you’re trying to follow? God gave us free will. Key word is FREE!!!! God gave us the freedom to make decisions and not to be anchored by decisions. I repeat….

—You don’t have to make a decision right now. Nor do you have to make a decision tomorrow or next month. The only thing you are obligated to do is worship God and be happy. Everything else (and I mean everything else) is secondary.--

Yes, I know this may sound hypercritical since I am married (11 yrs) with 4 moderately normal kids, but that’s the life that works for ME! If it hadn’t worked for me, I would not have done it. Period!!!! I have an “Airplane Approach” when it comes to making me happy, my husband happy and my kids happy. Whenever there is an emergency on an airplane, you are required to take care of yourself first, THEN help others. And you know what makes me happy????? Being secured with the knowledge that the only thing I must accomplish is to worship God and be happy. Everything else will get done once that is accomplished. Work will get done. Children will get cleaned and feed. Hubby will be cuddled (sometimes by force). Books will get read. TV will be watched. Miles will be ran.

Also, who the hell is gonna judge me for MY decisions? My neighbor? Another Mom? Family/Friends?????? Honestly, yes. Yes, they will all judge you based on the decisions you make. Yep, they’ll have have something to say, either to you, to your back or just to themselves. But guess what?!?!?!?! They are SECONDARY!!!!!! Tertiary or more….if I’m being honest. I’ve learned that people are going to say what they want about you to who they want and there’s not much we can do about it. So why care?

If I want to eat out every night instead of cook. So be it.
If I want to drink wine and whiskey instead of water. So be it.
If I put off going back to school for another year. So be it.

It’s so liberating. Try it.

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